The Earth Says Hello

Been a long time huh? I told you I'd come back when I was ready.

Truth: It is probably one of the most frightening, exciting, and unreal feelings to think that in about 3 months I will be spending a quarter of my year in Italy studying photography. Some may argue it is unreasonable for me to go, but honestly, I NEED to go. I NEED to be somewhere where I am inspired, where I am challenged. I just feel so stuck here in Amherst. The way I felt stuck back when I was 17 and on the brink of graduating high school. Only this time I don't have that bright new future to really look forward to, till now at least.

I am doing okay though. I think back at my mental state just a few short months ago and I don't know how I even made it out fine. I was such a mess; I feel like my mind broke in that period of time. I think it just proves that in the end, I will be okay. I am strong, I can do this.

A certain someone from my past contacted me recently. I don't know how to handle this. The feelings aren't there anymore, but I can't help but feel the slightest tingle of excitement and curiosity as to how its going to be when I see him. I realized he is the only person I know now who has no idea what has gone on in my life since high school. I hope he is doing well, I guess I can find out for myself soon enough. I still remember the smile on his face when I would make him laugh back when I was only 16.